Last Appointment!!!

I went in for my last appointment for baby Liam. May be my last pregnancy appointment ever ;)!!!!

I had to go over all the consent forms that will scare the crud out of you for a c-section. Dr L measured my belly, checked the heart beat and told me he would see me on surgery morning....yikes!! It's so close

He also told me not to go into labor next week because he is on vacation :((( My water broke early with Parker so this scares me a little bit. I love all the doctors at that clinic so I know all of them can obviously do the job but it's not the same as your own doctor. I have been pretty much working half days this past week and hope to do the same next week. I am to the point where I am miserable and my feet look like that have the elephantitus disease in the afternoons. Last night they swelled so bad I was actually getting worried.

10 Days 10 Days 10 Days!

I have mixed emotions about this. I am so ready to not be pregnant anymore and hold my sweet little boy. I am also nervous about having 2 kids. It obviously won't be the same as having just one. Am I ready for no sleep, up at all hours, still taking care of a 3 year old, pumping all the time?? Thankfully I have a great husband who seriously took 3 hour shifts with me when we had Parker eventhough he had to work the next day. But now we have 2 kids to think about & I am a clean freak!!! I healed pretty quickly with my last c-section. I was up and walking the next day and was good to go after a week. But what if this one is different? I have a million things going through my head.

I'm almost 99.5% positive this is our last kid. I almost consented to the tubal but had a weird feeling in the back of my mind so I decided against it. It's so permanent and you never know what tomorrow will bring. We always said we would have 2 kids and if we decided on a 3rd we would adopt. I love the idea of adoption and always have so I am still leaning towards that if our hands aren't full enough with 2 :)

Originally I was going to take off 4 months with baby Patch. Parker's daycare doesn't accept infants until they are 4 months old. But we decided to go ahead and put Patch into a different daycare when I go back to work until he can get into Parker's daycare. I will probably only take 8 weeks off...I'm just not the stay at home mommy type. I am in awe of all the mommies who stay at home and love every second. Sometimes I feel guilty that when I am at home all day with Parker I don't love every second. I have bad anxiety and OCD on cleanliness that it just eventually puts me in a bad mood and I don't like to go there. But I know everyone is different so I will definitely be going back to work.

So hopefully my next post will be about our sweet newborn son!!!